christmas has been & gone...my bubby is teetering towards a year old & i am struggling...struggling to keep my head above water & actually knuckle down & commit to anything. the tasks & projects keep piling up & my willingness is strong but the time...oh my goodness where did that go.
not to say things haven't been accomplished...there is nothing like unpicking your favourite item of extremely worn clothing - with a glass of wine in hand - (like pj bottoms for instance) & recreating some spanking new ones. but my world now constists of attemping to keep the freezer stocked with enough food to tempt the taste buds of a little girl that strangely enjoys sour & salt rather than her mothers sweet tooth...whilst poorly neglecting the fact that both her mum & dad don't have anything to eat for the week.
i can't believe how my dreams of being a 'stay at home mum' with frilly apron tending to casseroles simmering on the stove whilst whipping up a couple of items of clothing on the sewing machine & tending to the vegie garden have been quashed. being a stay at home mum i have now resolved is about letting go...forget the finger prints on the window, the vegemite squashed into the couch, the juice dribbled all over the rug & any ideas of achieving any of the many crafts you have listed...somehow you have to let go & just immerse yourself in their world & play ( & then attempt all the normal, rational cleaning up & general home duties in the very short periods of napping they have). i haven't quite learnt the art of letting go yet & we often battle it out over many tanties where i want to tend to some vegies whilst my beautiful girl would prefer that i pick her up & point out every bird that flies over head but we're both learning. a year on & i'm ready to get a little more organised & hopefully some more crafting & blogging will be on the horizon.
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